GREY NOTEBOOK 26–09–2008 TO 23–10–2008
you're on the 176 the sun's out it's friday evening day after tomorrow you'll be in france. either you'll be in france by this time friday evening or you'll be on the way to southern france, where your parents will be celebrating their 70th birthdays. what it is like to celebrate their birthdays their [there] at that time in the way [they] have chosen. by then you will begin to know that. much as you think you know exactly what it will be like in southern france, barely 20 minutes from p's parents' place, you have no idea. your neck and your elbow have been x-rayed after referral by a general practitioner. I hope it gets better, he said. those were his
words as you were leaving. east st. you had a haircut. the barber told you he washed his eyes with baby oil every morning and h every evening he covered his hands in vaseline. he meant to use his bike but he didn't. he was overweight that was why his feet hurt. fiona described the situation in the Isle of Lewis. w after many years of wishing they could live on the Isle of Lewis, she and he[r] husband after had visited Lewis and decided it was a place they would hate to live. she saw a church that looked like a factory with a little sign saying CHURCH. you were not allow you couldn't work in the
garden on a sunday. people drank thei sat drinking tea through their the mesh of their midge nets. Sam – her Sam – got infested with rabbit fleas. the ticks were so bad in the grass, all the dogs were had were generally covered with vaseline. there her father lived, grind-ing his own lenses, and sharing as as along with a network of other amateur astronomers, who passed their observation[] from one to another, often to find that the other had already observed the meteor that plunged into the sea moments before or the nebula etc – no
sooner than did he see this or that phenomenon than the phone would ring. now at least we know we would hate to live there., se she said, at least ,now we []now that.
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monteperdido.tv
verge
ontheverge
unfinishedbusiness.tv
realife.tv
real reallife.tv
inreallife
realtime.tv
selfstorage.tv
life.tv
that'slife.tv
exstinct.tv
[drawing of head in profile with helmet and appendages, as if passing through from front to back, perhaps for a costume]
eye \
glasses appointment for sam
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fri 10 oct
london Euston Birmingham New
dep. 15.10 [inkspot] arr. 16:41 St.
duration 1:31
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robincanter@yahoo.co.uk
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⇾ Tirge
c Kau
le relais parybole
le mangeoir
gites panda
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fluoride tablets
[[inkspot]]ontact gp
mon 37 Nov. 9.45
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carnegie chess club info for
Jesusa
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buy superglue for cat flap ꤶ
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[drawing of a monument: spherical top to an obelisk mounted on 3
tiered plinths
and a base]
call bob
20th ? meet bob
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next th. woodwork
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change payment
to Martins
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this
start as soon as you can wait-
ing won't work waiting won't make it any as soon as
as soon as your hands are free begin put down your bags of groceries, take off the your backpack, I wouldn't open your computer take your notebook, look at the bleached
swamp weeds in front of you etc the willow start like a dog running outdoors – well, sebald compared himself to a dog quartering the ground – maybe you've never had a dog a dog that's been cooped up in a shed with another dog all day and another night and day because somebody forgot to let it out – that dog comes flying out of its shed the moment the door is opened, after whining and abandoning two days and a night, never entirely giving up hope the dark the door opens dark door will open into the dark _ is one way.
the language acquired so laboriously– so easily then and and so laboriously and
which became such a burden to you that language is beginsning to decay. quite normally sinking without a trace the laborious assemblages you acquired sink, leaving some things sticking up those things that won't go away, not yet a natural filtration occurs leaving a person at some point naturally ready naturally able to start with the right m combination of articulacy []nd incapacity, it
will suddenly seemed seem, as you
cross the park with your groceries, as you sit on a bench by the lake, the only possible mix-ture for this particular job ta undertaking project. the prep the preparation for a project like
this is a mixture of acquisition and decay it's a just as a project like this is itself sets about a process of acquisition and disposal and of invoking and in and revocation etc etc like a person who takes handfuls of
earth and throws them to
the side and back
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order recycling bags ꤶ
ref# OGK04KQW
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finalise moneygram (PO)
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Grant museum – visit
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get up at dawn m wash your face make the fire. now you're sitting by the window the same branch is a deeper shade of yellow the vine is a brighter shade of red it's a grey day your eyes are closing you're almost asleep the downstairs they're doing maths through the
gap in the trees people cross the schoolyard on their way to
school I'd take you to the school gates, p is saying to s, you'd run in each to your own class with your own teacher you have a splinter in your finger it a series of planes fly over the house on the approach to heathrow, obscured by cloud, you barely hear them. now you have been here a few weeks you barely hear the roar of aircraft. it's only when you come back from being away you hear them, briefly before you are plunged back in silence of course it isn't silence your friends the viola player and the music therapist were forced to leave london by sound and particle
sound pollution that and traffic by and especially be[y]
sound pollution which enters your ears relentlessly and penetrates you entirely, as daniel barenboim was saying, according to marion, unlike taking you over and taking possession and of you, this is why it's dangerous, m went on, this is why we don't listen to wagner we listen to messiaen or shostakovitch, she was saying, in order to keep from despairing, from the time I sat under my mother's grand piano as she played – my mother the concert pianist, while my father was fi the poor psychiatrist was fighting in N Africa – put out bird close the window it's cold put out birds are hopping up and down through the branches of the apple and the elder the a dark animal slipped down the between the trees the back room was full of animal
droppings when you got back the hedgehog keep[] coming in, and leaving its little shits and pools of urine in the corner and under the pallet you tried to scrape it off and wash the floor with a mop. somebody else has cut into the allotm-ents and taken colin newell's apples you'll get the blame tonight at the meeting camberwell gardens guild committee meeting the members of the committee are roused more and more gripped by fear and impotent anger – they're looking for a target the smell of breakfast rise[] up the stairs the smell of bread and coffee p is in the shower a flock of pigeon[] come[] over the roofs, flying straight at you
it's
p is out of the shower now go
nearly time for breakfast a
constant n flow of talk fills
the downstairs area, go down waiting like a poo[l] flowing into every space – go down.
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keepers nursery open day
– 5 oct (missed it) date
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promote north street pottery
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10g pigment
+ bring jar
[drawing of a series of blocks with vertical lines and occasional capital letters: CAGO
CAO in two horizontal lines – screens, shutters, shipping containers, freight train wagons]
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you're sitting in the camberwell gardens guild committee meeting you're listening to theverbatimminutes of the last meeting it's hot you can hear the buses up and down camberwell road the voice reading continues, announcing events that have occurred in the interim a sense of vague growing anxiety grips you an acute sense of temporal loss loss and rejection grips you blood rises under you[] skin you take off your sweater you took off your sweater
the reading continues xxxx as a usual everything was a success, [illegible] shirley's leukemia problem[] are improving poppy kirby who exhibits her lovely roses for so many years is moving allotments inspection sparrows hens were are the problem anticlim[] paint dick cooper wrote "have you no shame" battery operated CCTVs are not available dates of next meeting 7 october 2008 here you are.
billhammondsays the price of milk has gone up from 42p to 45p
[drawing of 3 monitors in a row]
you're out of there. you've been eating 2 bowls of lentils, doing you emails etc. completely confounded and dispirited by these events co dispirited by the texture of these experiences you present sex obsessive sex presence becomes obsessive again. sex takes over in the same way as the woman in the story, returning from a day or a week which has been too much, in every respect too hard too long, is seen urgently returning to he[] coming in, after dropping her keys impatiently on the table, walking quickly upstairs, entering
the room where she
knows + ha[] known and compensati[]n[] is waiting –
we see her enter, see the what is waiting for her, take a deep breath, and slow down, force herself to slow down as she takes off her clothes, in the same way you become fixated and you're prone to the most obsessive behaviours every kind of detailed attention to detail becomes part of this transaction very detailed repetition act barely deviating or hesitating establishes an obsessive economy in which
or a give and take
the ins and outs of give and take the proliferate in every direction and inhabit the minutest sub parts of
of a person's body, in contact with another person, the birds are singing in a tent in the early morning as a person presents themselves naked of course and nakedly to the other, demanding thei so that their response, as they too emerge from sleep, is increasingly placed in an are a naked arena, as it dawns, literally, on them, that this person's the nature of this other person's propo p intention,
their mood and extreme lack of compromise at this early moment in any respect, the total demand they place and the answering response and consequent soon hard uncompromising and complete demand set of demands and commands that respond increasingly and irresistibly as the sun is coming
up to that: initial
first presentation – after
hours of waiting in the dark, you decide to wake that person up – you couldn't wait any longer ·finding them already awake –
when you[] sleeping bags
were unzipped you
beg[]n to give and take sex so nakedly you so for so long and
i[] such detail, you
fell xxxx could only
periodically fall apart
exhausted and stare at
each other before putting aout ahand out for –
unable either to watch
or to without
touching, even in
exhaustion of detail, f[]
[ ] a finger ended
up in an[] a hand
and and a mouth wa[]
on, before you
could stop, almost in
stop [ , ] again –
give xxx
the give and take
give an
take i[]
the woodpigeon[] which were all around this area were calling, crashingamongthrough the
in branches, sticking the males st mating and
sticking their your
cock wa[] out of
was sticking out
like a bird's cock, out
of control, you the controlled your
cunt w far from
cunt
controlling the cock was could not control it
in
you[r] cunt your
mouth and in your fist hands your eyes, staring passing from
one to the other, one sex part to another tied up undid any
remaining uncertainty, finally confirming the nakedness of by demonstration, one by one, the desp
vv total
demand you
were [ ] for, which you
recognized at once. and
which. when you got up
to go pee, you came back
for, [ ] explicitly, with your mouth open and your
tongue [ ] out
danny bastone – email
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cards – re more work + finish
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toilet seat – order
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curtain rails – habitat ?
– build centre?
[inkspot]
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explore possibility of cutting out video elements and inserting in text a[s] realistic real time elements, like in illuminated manuscripts (+ audio)
[drawing of 3 pages showing (left) upper right, a dot; (centre) upper right, an insect; (right) page of text with along the lower edge, a landscape]
payment to martins
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＊⃝ apply to the open west
by 31 oct
£2000 prize
[inkspot]
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[scribble]
Royal Inst., Albemarle St.
1-1.15 R1 lobby
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www.glfb.gov.uk
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1 left?
ꤶ habitat have an oak cutain rail
£49 240cm
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and a chrome£59 130–240 double pole
and a curtain wire
they have curtain rings in oak
or chrome
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bus no. 29 from Colmore Row
(BirminghamCity Centre) exit at Harborne
Park Rd (Harborne) – Old Church
Rd is on opp. side of rd.
VSO training centre, Holborne
Hall
from B. New St: escalator from main concourse to the Main Shopping Centre. Turn L + follow signs for exit to City Centre/ICC/Symphony Hall. At exit cross almost straight over New St into Corporation St. Continue along Corporation St, + just before House of Fraser on left, turn L into Cherry St. Cont. along Cherry St to Temple Row. Cross Temple Row into grounds of Birmingham Cathedral. At far side of cathedral grounds is a row of bus stops. Go to bus stop AD, opposite Oddbins, + take bus 29. [walk takes 10min.]. cost £1.50 (exact change only. Ask driver to drop you at the 2nd bus stop along Harborne Park Rd, at jctn w. Old Church Rd. [journey time 20 min]
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www.digital-links. org
education: put it on the curriculum
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semi-structured interview
around volunteering ||
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yes, but around that
or some contentious
issue
such as: gender roles
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volunteering is essentially a form of cultural
tourism
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|| as a guest in another culture, a volunteer
should
̬ is it
it is not a volunteer's
role to challengecultural practices
or social norms country even
in another culture, even
which, even that you don't agree with
them
a volun
"as a volunteer, you may not agree with certain cultural
practices in the area where
norms
you work; but it is not
your role to challenge them."
illegible to
"it is not a volunteer's role to challenge cultural norms
in a box:
"[part of a volunteer's role is
to challenge social and
cultural norms you do not
agree with"]
volunteering to work overseas
can be veryhugely
has is a ꞈ rewarding exper-
it ꞈ you don't ex have much
ience. doesn't doesn't have a
significant impact on develop-
ment.
"you may not agree with some of the cultural norms where you are posted. as a volunteer, it isn't your role to challenge them."
volunteering is a bit like tourism.
semi structured interview
intro: in some ways, volunteering
and the role of the voluntary sector are
fairly new phenomena.
volunteering seem to
'voluntary work' seem to b are accent curious terms, that b certain[]y, they are
not recognised in many places, where
__ is going to china to set up a voluntary volunteering scheme. she anticipates that
the concept of volunteering
and 'voluntary work' will
seembe unfamiliar and perhaps
appear contradictory
difficult to understand for her clients people she will be working with. as we would
like y to ask you, to as committed people engaged in the VSO, to reflect on the following:
what is makes 'volunteering' distinct (from eg voluntourism
regular employment
or working abroad) or
what as aspects of voluntary
work have you
please refer to your exper-
ience of doing voluntary work
what makes it valuable?
what volunteering means to you?
what makes it distinctive?
what make is valuable ?
please refer a[s] much as possible to your own experience of working in the volunteering + voluntary work ·
in a box:
[definition of volunteering ·
values of volunteering]
intro Fiona will be advocating a voluntary based approach to dev.\ educ. in China, where this concept of volunteering + vo is relatively unfamiliar.
as people wi engage with devel this approach, we would be want to ask you what you consider the key features of a voluntary approach – as + the key advantages \ and please (and or problems?) we'd like you to refer as much as possible to you[r] own experience – which we're interested in vso but at of course but [diagonal line to base of page] also in other experiences of volunteering which you have had
we're par also
interested in other instances where a volunt
Interview Guide
features of a volunteering
benefits of volunteering
limitations of voluntary approach
examples of voluntary
ary approach \ framework has been important
moodle website
[sketch of a venn diagram showing: (circle 1) LOK; (circle 2) VSO, phnom penh; (dotted circle 3) small other community groups CBO's. NGO's; to the left: 'UNDP terms of ref'. Connecting circles 1 and 2, a small 2-headed arrow labelled 'vol.' (perhaps to indicate an expanding and contracting zone)]
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the open university "an african
school"
dvd series on a school in
Uganda
you're eating sushi on the platform at Birmingham New St. you're sitting in the sun. you're waiting for the 14.00 to London Euston you're coming back from a class onꞈtraining exercise on participatory develop-ment. you've been inside for 2 days. sun brilliant sun is shining on the platform, as on the buildings of birmingham – the bullring thronged with shoppers and the selfridge's building by future systems with its button clad exterior and exposed services which do in not diminish the if anything emphasize the crass contents – one moment you're talking in no time yo a few minutes you'll be fly shooting backwards
down the track on the way to london euston where you left your bicycle chained on friday afternoon the landscape - shoots backwards. the person you're sitting next to seems anxious – she's rigid, clutching he[] bag. staring out the window. you're smelling of fish as you shoo shoot backwards. your mind returns to the now empty room where your colleague[s], whom you had never met and who you'll never meet again, were gathered from all parts of the uk and holland – where they have all returned – before they are shot out like pellets across the globe: to China, Tajikhistan, Malawi, and
in the same way that you will be shot out like a pellet to Tanzania, along with the pellets represen-ting of your family – all five of you, in an illusion, in effect, of intention, along with those other workshop pellets, plus the other hundred[] or in fact thousands of pellets shot
out across the globe by vso – to places they you have next to no understanding of and never will, not to speak of your own po roles and motivations, your own failures issues – the way every person in that room can be seen to have a major issue of[r] issues sitting so transparently on their shoulder – who your
obsession with non monolithic cultures or Bill's obsession w Chapman's obsession
with language or Barbara's obsession with building relationships, or something – big stone[s], as Tracy was saying in the taxi to the station, covered in stickit note[s] – piles of literal stones collected from the garden, labelled with postit notes and weighed - piled and then way weighed in massive heaps of blockages –
blocks and helps, she
said – more blocks than helps, she said, in the taxi, on her way back to her refugee job in swansea to support he[r] elderly isolated parents, [so] newly divorced, making a long-term placement out of the question, the mind goes back, as you pre shoot foward, as you wait on the to shoot forward
no you're on the 14.00 the pendolino passing through a deep cutting. after a long deep cutting you look out over the
turning and away
fields revolving back(wards) – big fields full of stubble or grass or sheep –or some
cows by a galvanised
barn – a spire sticking
up here before another cutting.
things of very limited inter-
est, to you – certainly no response at all all
is triggered by these landscapes – nor d they neither engage nor repel the viewer – this viewer []s indifferent to these landscapes. can we imagine passing with bland domesticated landscapes – nothing attaches to them – you pass some allotments – of course an
allotment engages the viewer it's a disruption, it's a contestation of the landscape, as crouch + ward write / on the edge of Milton Keynes without stopping the Pendolino accelerates smoothly with rising pitch swaying from side to side then decelerates again, pitch falling to pass through a deep cutting full of dark undergrowth with red haws and hips, reemerging
and passing through bays of aggregate at Bletchley
before pulling swiftly away again – soon you will be entering the magnetic
area of your own family, after a period of [illegible] intense dislocation – you follow a canal and pass a cemetery, graves sparkling in the octobersunshine – the canal continues for some way with canal boats and people on the towpaths only now turning definitively away – time, writesfor Levinas, is the Other's bread and butter of the other very form of
the other
not the achievement of an isolated and lone subject,
time isbut the very relationship
of the subject with the
Other. you have slowed
right down. the person beside you has· finished their long conver phone conversation with a friend, in which they say they are going somewhere they hate while they wait for their husband to sort out their paperwork, mean asking, meanwhile, for their friend to keep an eye on their mum. they've been on the train for 3 hours. no longer clutching. the bag on their knee, they have buried their hands in the pockets of a thick black coat, leaving one wrist visible,asyou stop you enterWatford junction. Through sight, touch, sympathy, and cooperative work, we are with others. All these relationship[s] are trans-
itive: I touch an object,
I see the Other. But I am not
the Other. writes Levinas. I
am all alone.
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order adapter to play cd player in car
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reimport footage of
Cath teaching – clip 1,
add in + out points,
ꤶ put in sequence
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work on some footage,
capturing new material
if nec.
work on overall organisation,
titles + voiceover
script
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Rosemary M
7701 0489
prov. Sat around 10
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owe Angie £1.80
for chips
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follow up to Tracey Ama
allotments:signage, (make sign ??)
contact police
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order toilet seat (vitra)
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curtain rail (oak) (Habitat) – check
finials +
order?
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meet Rosemary Minto (check
email)
+ Fiona Hill @
11.30 12 pm sat.
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devonshire rd: use sheep to
graze the meadow in
late summer / autumn and in
feb / march
– email nick + Iris ?
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cat vet appointment
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nikkiwooden@yahoo.co.uk
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[3 x drawings of casement window, showing cill, recess, fixed and outward opening leaves]
send fiona dick cooper's email
address
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battery for iBook
14" G4
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Castellar de la Frontera
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2 mouseguards – make or
buy
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into the wild
I know ·hat you did last Wed
Outcast
the greek who stole ..
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email sue to say money has
gone through + please
do cheque \ bank transfer
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eye apt. fri 3 pm
train times · 14.54 ＊
15.24
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(family) crisis
a person is in crisis. it's a family crisis. two people in crisis have sex. another person is produced. it's a three person crisis. the story continues.
a person does their best they do what they can. you all do. it doesn't help. if anything it makes things worse. it prolongs the agony.
a person uses all their resources. demonstrating interest they squirm
on the hook. the results are varied and oft[en]en unpredictable.
this of course is how you are made and make yourself and even others. th that this is how it is done.
a person makes all kinds of noises, many recorded here, a[s] they encounter move through these encounters.
you learn as fast as you can. you're always out of [illeg.] you never you run and run and find n efficiencies you never expected and never
catch up.
||this should be the dedication
[sounds of suckling (or
sex)]
an to a work of science.
it isn't.
this is it.
it is a commonplace that the interlinking personal and the family crises [are] part and
parcel of a political crisis.
This is dwarfed by an
ecological crisis that
threatens the origin
are nested within
political and ecological
crises of barely
conceivable intensity.
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